Hi, my name is Anna, and I’m a food-aoholic.
I hope I’m not the only one sitting around this circle, as I divulge my addiction to you all. The problem with a food addiction is that it is more socially accepted than drug, alcohol and even nicotine addictions. But it is an addiction, nevertheless, and should be treated as one.
Many of the women I meet with on the subject of food and weight-loss have a hard time admitting that food is an addition. Some of these women have even come from backgrounds of drug and alcohol abuse and can’t see that they have simply transfered their addictive behavior onto a more socially accepted vice.
I’ve heard that an addiction always serves a need. For women, it is often an emotional need of self-worth that is not being met. Addictions also often serve as diversions. Distractions that always defer action or delay the progress we want to see in our lives. Ask yourself:
- What need do I have that is not being met?
- What things am I running from and using my addiction to avoid?
For me, I had a self-worth problem and ate my way into a dungeon of insecurity. Time in God’s Word, and slowly finding my self-worth in Him is the only reason I’m free today. (More on this later.)
Being addicted to food is the reason that at age 18, I looked like this:
Yes, that’s me, under the weight, under the many layers of insecurity that kept me at that weight. That’s also my first car as well. I’m the one in teal. 🙂
I’ll have you all know, showing this picture is still a little embarrassing. Even though I’ve lost over 75 pounds, there are some days when I still feel like that fat girl. Why? Because I’m still addicted to food.
I think about food. I prepare food. I eat food, and think about preparing food while I’m eating it. Except now I’m thinking of healthy food, and how many calories I’ve consumed, and what I’ll need to do at the gym to work off the fat grams, carbohydrates and sugars.
I’m sorry to say, I don’t have the answers to overcoming this addiction, but my prayer is that we can start a dialogue, and share our journeys together. Over the next couple days I’ll continue this conversation in hopes that we can find some encouragement from each other. In the mean time, please feel free to send me an e-mail, or leave a comment below and share your experiences with all who might read.
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